I have no lid upon my head, But if I did..

Parallels.

Everything was great.
Valentines was wonderful, we've been together 1 year. It's lovely
until i found out you've been lying this whole time.
If you would have just told me the truth I would have been proud
but all you did was prove to me that you can lie to my face.
Thanks. Today was so good until i found out.
fuck you

I miss......

Spending my sixteenth birthday at the four seasons in NYC with 4 really kickass chicks. I miss Naomi and Ericka. I miss getting crunk and fondling tina's earlobe while Brittany innocently watched Hannah Montana in the next room over.

I miss.....


Being focused on art and getting better. I have no motivation to do so.

I especially miss a year ago when I met a shy boy named Sam.


This is the first picture I've ever taken of him. I miss when everything he did seemed perfect to me. I miss finding things out about him and the awkwardness of new relationships.



I feel like a different person. I miss the summer of 06 when I'd drive with Sabrina into the night and blast Les Claypool and Tool. Being around her was the most thrilling part of my life thus far. She's the only person who can even conceive how I really feel and understands me when i try to talk deeply. I felt so lost when she first moved and summer was over. Lately I can't stop thinking about no one will ever replace the excitement of her. No one gets it. I almost was fired from camp because of the levels of intoxication I endured that summer but I wouldn't have it any other way.



Something to look forward to- 5th Coheed adventure on Thursday! First one with Sam! I'm so excited, this is his first show other than hippiefest. I'm so glad they're on tour with Slipknot and Trivium I love all the bands playing.
And comic con next sunday? yessssssssssss!!!!<3
I plan on acquiring a lightsaber.


Off to play brawl and animal crossing.
maybe some super Mario galaxy. Change it up a bit


I'm updating this because Brittany says shes not as much anymore and I want to feel excited about LJ still.
I left my license in Goshen, I'm pissed

 
I'm not, what a relief.



I need to spend more time with my friends.
you're annoying me.
I want maturity.


I want emotions. creativity. passion.


It isn't hard.


I want to get high.

 Next week will make me or break me.
If what I'm worried about is true.
I don't know what i'll do.


Mid Terms do not help.

 all i want to do is make love to you
and you wont let me

 I just realized that all of my favorite candies have gelatin in it

i've been eating them all this whole time
and i didnt even know

im a fucking idiot and im so disgusted

"I don't want to ruin your life if I ever break up with you"

 I can't stop playing the wii.
Today I bought Brawl so now between that and Animal Crossing.. oh my. Plus Preston introduced me to the many pokemon gameboy games he was hiding from me. If sam and I weren't going to my dads for a bit I would be consumed with games.
It's keeping me occupied.
The night of christmas was the worst I've felt in a while. I was forgotten and ignored... by the person who loves me. You think I would be thought about on christmas. That set the mood for how I feel about it all now. I could do better in a lot of areas.




It's sad to see love die.
But really, I'm fine for now.

 Yeah so, Today is the Jacob's Hannukah today.
Hannukah really starts tomorrow and you're supposed to celebrate it for 8 days.
But We're just celebrating it today. haha we're too liberal for our own good..


Snow days have been driving me crazy. We're going to end up not having a spring break
I need to keep myself busy this break otherwise i'll go nuts.
sooo yeah
that's all i need say.
have a nice day